O round like a chicken egg

I had sweaty hands, so when I was in school, I had to use a fountain pen, which was no different from torture. The teacher did not allow me to use a ballpoint pen early because writing with a smooth ballpoint pen ruined the letters. My spelling book was always smeared with ink because of sweat. The letters were neat and round at first, but by the end of the page, they were shaky and gradually distorted because the sweat poured out, making my hand holding the pen slippery as if it was greased. I remember one time when I was practicing writing the letter O, the teacher said, "O is round like a chicken egg," and my letter O must have been the egg of a newly discovered breed of chicken. Some letters were crooked to the left, some to the right, some were crooked without any direction or rule. In short, after I got out of the spelling class, I saw that my life had turned a much brighter page. Thinking back, I wondered: O is round like a chicken egg, but is there any round chicken egg? If we consider the geometric shape, it is more like an oval, even a chicken egg has one blunt end and one pointed end, not symmetrical like an oval. But compared to a circle, it is like heaven and earth.

The older I get, the more I realize that life is like the letter O, round like a chicken egg. That is, it is difficult to be round and perfect like calculation, like math. Life is a combination of small relative things that we tend to round them into absolute. This restaurant is not very good, but that's okay. These shoes are a little tight, but that's okay. This movie is a little boring, but that's okay. This job is not suitable for me, but that's okay. I don't love this partner very much, but that's okay. Am I satisfied with the life I have? Probably not, but that's okay.

The problem is, accepting a result is far from being satisfied with that result. Dissatisfaction often leads people to extreme states, especially when the feeling of dissatisfaction from small things accumulates over time to form a storm. In fact, dissatisfaction is a more dangerous emotional state than obvious negative emotions such as sadness, anger, and suffering. On one side are strong but temporary emotions, on the other side is a persistent, smoldering feeling that is unclear but makes people feel uncomfortable like a bean under the princess's 7 layers of cushion. Just like people can endure a pain, but it is difficult to endure an itch without scratching.

It’s been a long time since I accepted the fact that the letter O is round like a chicken egg. Perhaps only children are innocent and optimistic about the roundness of life. But that’s not so important anymore, because chicken eggs are still worth loving even if they are not round, if we learn to love other forms of them. If life throws you a bone, learn to be a happy dog.