I couldn't go any further because she already had a family.

I also decided that I preferred to leave things as they were and couldn't take it further because her family seemed happy, which bothered me, but my reason told me to stop.

She's not young anymore, a little plump, quite pretty in a ladylike way—fair skin, thin lips, expressive eyes—and possesses a charming, graceful, and extremely confident allure for us men. At every party, her presence enlivens the atmosphere with her skillful conversation, ability to lead the conversation, and broad knowledge of life and work. She's a very good drinker and very sober; I've never seen her drunk. Sometimes she'll drink over ten bottles and still look normal, socializing, and driving home safely.

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She's married, everyone knows that, including me, but I still want to see her often, to talk to her, to look deep into her eyes. It seems she understands me very well; we've only just met, but it feels like we're soulmates. Initially, I interacted with her for work, then I got drawn to her without realizing it. I started to be jealous of her family, jealous of her friends, jealous even of my colleagues when they mentioned her. I followed her on social media, liking and commenting on every picture of hers, even if it had nothing to do with me. It seems she vaguely understood, deliberately teasing me, laughing and driving me crazy even more.

One day we met privately for work, drank quite a bit together, and talked all day without getting bored. I don't know if it was the alcohol or her, but I felt completely absorbed and disoriented. I held her hand; she was surprised, looking deep into my eyes, but didn't pull her hand away. We just looked at each other like that until it got late, then she said she had to go home. Before leaving, she said she wasn't an easy person and acted as if nothing had happened that day. After that, we still met because of work commitments. She was still cheerful and normal with me, but her eyes were warmer and more caring. Sometimes we would get angry for no reason, but she never said she missed me or liked me.

I also decided to just leave things as they are and not pursue anything further because her family seems happy, which bothers me, but my reason tells me to stop. She hasn't been in the industry long, but because of her tactfulness, her career has progressed quite well, and her network is expanding. I see her being as close to everyone as she is to me. I don't understand if she's using me to gain an advantage in her career, or if she genuinely likes me. Sometimes I just want to ask her, what is enough when she keeps toying with my feelings?

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