When the husband is dry and boring

I didn't think married life would be this dull and boring. I'm afraid I can't keep trying anymore...

I have been married for almost 2 years, my husband's house is more than 100 kilometers away from mine. So I have to live far away from my family, only knowing my husband and his family. My husband's family specializes in agriculture, and since I was a child I have never known what a rice plant is. Fortunately, my husband's parents are still healthy, still do all the planting and harvesting, they do not force me to do it because I do not know.

My husband and I used to study at the same school but in different courses. When my husband graduated, I joined him. We met when he was studying in a bridging course. From the time we met until we decided to get married was exactly 1 year. And we only met twice. Mostly we talked on the phone.

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In general, my husband is a dry person, not delicate or psychological. Since we first got married, I have been sad because my husband goes to work in the morning, and in the afternoon, if he has nothing to do, he sleeps until 5am, then gets up to play badminton until 8pm before coming home to eat. After eating, he plays on his phone, when he is bored, he sleeps, and goes to work the next morning.

In general, my husband's schedule was just like that, never changed. At that time, because I couldn't find a job in my field, I applied to work as a factory worker in a company 15 kilometers away from home. After working for a while, I got pregnant. Although I was tired, I still tried to go to work, earn some money to save for when I gave birth so I would have money to spend.

During my pregnancy, my husband never offered to take me to work, nor asked if I was safe on the road or tired from work. One day, when I came home from work, it was raining and cold, with thunder and lightning. I was both scared and sad, so I cried as I walked. When I got home, I saw my husband chatting online with his friends, asking about them this and that. It turned out that he cared about his friends and not his wife and children.

I don’t blame my husband’s family for being poor. I already knew and accepted that before getting married. I’m just sad because I live with a husband who is so boring, indifferent and irresponsible. Since giving birth, I stopped working for a company because I have to stay home to take care of my children. But I still sell things online and earn some money.

My husband's salary is low, so his parents still pay for food and living expenses for my husband, me and my children. My husband has no ambition, no determination, no effort and no plans for the future, nor does he help his wife or mother with housework. My husband only knows how to rely on his grandparents and his wife. When he goes out, he is fine, but when he is at home, he is bored, plays with his phone and falls asleep.

His superficial lifestyle also made our marriage boring. We never talked to each other, let alone confided, whispered, shared stories in life… I longed for a gentle hand, a hug, a loving look, or a caring word… or just a sentence “I miss you”, “I love you”… But the more I waited, the more disappointed I was.

My husband only makes me feel hurt, abandoned and lonely even though I live right next to him. Every night I crave a kiss, a hug, a little bit of passion... But honestly, I'm never satisfied with him.

On holidays and anniversaries, he was indifferent, not even saying a word to his wife, let alone giving her flowers or gifts. Since getting married, I cried a lot. Sometimes when I woke up in the morning and saw my pillow covered in tears, he just said: “Why are you crying? Are you crazy?”

Even though I tried to express my small wishes to my husband, it seemed like he didn't listen or care, so he never understood, let alone changed to make our married life warmer.

The more I see a big gap between us, it's hard to fill. I crave a man's gentleness, his gallantry, his care, his attention... I crave the feeling of passionate love, the feeling of longing, the feeling of loving and being loved...

But I only have a selfish husband. There was a time when I thought, if I continue living with this dull, dry and boring husband, will I ever betray him? I didn’t think married life would be this dull and boring. I’m afraid that I can’t continue to try anymore. I want to give up, but I only try to stay because I love my children…/.

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