I really want to meet my old friend but I'm afraid I can't control myself.

Many times I can't control myself, half wanting to see you to make up for the years of missing you, half wanting to end it because I think of my little family.

I, a young man born in a poor village in the sunny Central Highlands. Although my family was not well off, my parents tried to give me a peaceful childhood, without having to struggle much. Like many other young men when I entered life, I also had my own first love, a beautiful love, beautiful when in love and painful when we broke up. She was a friend in my group and lived near me, at first we called each other "Tao" and "May", gradually we fell in love without realizing it. She was cute, I must say that in my eyes at that time she was number one and no one in the world was like her.

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I can’t forget the days when we went to school together, the first time we kissed on a deserted street, her mouth was tightly closed, her eyes were wide open. People say that first love often doesn’t last, and we were no exception. I started to graduate and went to Saigon to study, while she went to Hanoi. You might wonder why we fell in love but didn’t study near each other? Actually, I only found out later that because I chose the school first, her parents didn’t like me so they tried to push her to Hanoi to study away from me.

Knowing that, I was even more determined to keep her, all efforts, even tricks to keep her waiting until the day she graduated and returned to her hometown to work so she could be near. But truly, our immature minds at that time could not win over mature adults. The two of us, with our childish thoughts, broke up after 2 years of trying to maintain and ended contact from then on. Then time passed, now I have a small, happy family with a wife and a little angel. I must say I am satisfied with the present. And she also has a family with a cute son. But even though time has eroded her age and strength, it cannot erase her image in my mind. Sometimes when I sit and think, I find that I still love her.

By some stroke of luck, we found each other on Facebook. Knowing that we were not far from each other, we reminisced about old memories. I said I still loved her like before, she said she could never forget me in her entire life. Everything is progressing, starting with more passionate and emotional messages. What I am worried about is that "Old love will come back without invitation", although it has only stopped at online messages now, but there are times when I can't control myself, half wanting to see her to make up for the longing I've had for years, half wanting to end it because I think about my little family. Reading the adultery stories on here, I feel tired of the husbands and wives, I don't know if I should follow in her footsteps to have her in my life again.

According to Ngoisiao.net