Love you, I am indifferent to everyone

I know I'm nothing to you, leaving me is too easy, leaving me will relieve your burden.

He and I have been in love for more than 2 years, we studied in the same university class, these days are our last days in the lecture hall. He is my first love, and I am his third love. Before that, we were close friends in the same group in university class, but now that close group only has 4 girls playing together. In the beginning, he only considered me as a replacement for his first love, but I was blinded and didn't know anything. A few days later, after falling in love with me, he confessed it, this was the first time he lied, hurt me, because I love him, I forgave him.

We still love each other, I love him blindly, I asked him if he had ever crossed the line with those other girls, he answered “No”. I gave him everything, then one day he confessed that he had had relationships with those girls before. He hurt me again! Maybe loving those girls before hurt him so much that he became tough, so it could only be him who hurt me. When we were angry, I was always the one to make peace, even though I was not wrong. Loving him, my parents would have opposed it because the distance between us was quite far, but I hid it from them, thinking I would disregard everything to love him.

I love him, I love his hometown, I love his relatives. We used to think about the future, he said he would stay in Hanoi because of me, we would have beautiful children, think about naming them, take them to church on weekends, take them back to the countryside to visit their grandparents. But when he was about to graduate, he said he would go back to the countryside, even though he had a very good job in Hanoi, and I didn't know. I used to think that because I loved him and if he truly loved me, I would do anything to follow him. But what about him? He always hurt me, he could leave me walking home in the hot noon sun, stand outside the gate in the middle of the night, leave me crying in pain.

He never seemed to care about my feelings, when we were angry, he would just go talk to his ex. He always forced me to do this and that, forced me not to do things he didn't like, he could yell at me anywhere, even in front of my friends, loving him I gradually lost friends because my only concern was him. I was indifferent to my family, my friends. He, a man who doesn't know how to admit his mistakes, a conservative, patriarchal person. I know I'm nothing to him, leaving me is too easy, leaving me will relieve him of his burden. This love has left a wound in me that will never heal.

According to VNE