I want to go back to my wife but my lover won't break up.

I betrayed my wife and children and also did not bring joy to my lover. I decided to say goodbye to my lover but she did not agree.

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I have a family and a child less than one year old. My family life is passing by indifferently, I cannot be close to my wife, there is no joy, every day I want to explode to escape this life. Maybe from the beginning I did not prepare anything for married life. I also talked to my wife about these things.

I met her, she was my colleague. At first, we didn't talk much even though we worked in the same room. One day, she confided in me about her life, her sadness, her worries, she had a family but was not happy. She gave up everything. At that time, I just wanted to confide in her to help her overcome her sadness, but I had feelings for her, and so did she. Just like that, we came together. The time we spent together, she and I were very happy, until now our relationship has lasted for half a year. She accepted a relationship without a title, silently waiting.

Recently, I have thought a lot about this relationship, I feel so bad. I have betrayed my wife and children and have not brought true happiness to my lover. I do not want her to live forever in a love that has no future. I also determined that whether the family breaks up or not, I will not remarry. Therefore, I decided to say goodbye to her. However, she did not agree, she wanted us to just love each other, she could not live without this love. I am not cruel enough, so now I am really stuck. I do not know what to do.

I love her very much but I cannot let her live a life without a way out. Besides, recently I realized that my wife has changed a lot, she wants me to feel comfortable, and I want to make up for the sins I have caused my wife and children. What should I do?

According to VNE