I paid a high price for getting married in haste.

If my ex-girlfriend has a soul that loves others, my wife is profound, scolds her husband, selfish, flirtatious, the house is messy for just the two of us, I have to clean it all day.

I am 30 years old, from Binh Dinh. During my first year of university, I met and fell in love with her because we studied together at the National University, and studied the same national defense course. She is the same age as me, from Buon Ma Thuot city, an urban girl from a well-off family, not outstandingly beautiful but because she knows how to dress up, she looks quite cute, studies very well, appears stubborn on the outside but knows how to love and live for others. As for me, my family is not well off either, I am not tall, handsome, I ride a broken bicycle bought for only 200 thousand (she rides an expensive scooter). She is not afraid of anything, loves me very sincerely, likes to sit behind me, we ride around the school yard every afternoon.

At the beginning of our relationship, we rarely met because she spent time studying and I had to teach extra classes, only seeing each other on weekends. Every time we went out, she only asked to eat at cheap student restaurants because she knew I didn't have much money, even though I knew she couldn't afford those things except for some snacks she liked. I knew that because in the dormitory she couldn't eat student food, she always ordered food from outside to be delivered or asked her friends to buy it. When she wanted to go somewhere more luxurious with me, she would cleverly pay. Occasionally, I would take her shopping, she always bought expensive things, even millions (bought with her own money). Once, I took her to buy a lipstick, when I asked how much it cost, she said almost a million. I showed my attitude towards her, the money for lipstick and shoes was equal to my entire monthly salary. I sarcastically said she was ungrateful, only knew how to live outside, and lived wastefully. We broke up for a few days and then got back together.

Every semester, she received a scholarship, saved that money to buy a gift for her parents, and bought clothes and milk for me. I didn't like it because of my pride, so we argued and broke up for a few days. Many times we broke up because when she was angry, she said something too harsh. But the relationship lasted for many years, with many angry feelings but many happy memories. After graduating, I took her back to my hometown to meet my parents, my parents didn't like her, saying she was too fancy and lived too far away. Even so, we still maintained our relationship. At that time, I had a job, my salary wasn't high but it was enough to cover expenses, I could take her out to eat and travel near Saigon.

She still refused to work after a year of graduation even though she graduated as valedictorian and was invited to work in many places. I felt extremely uncomfortable and angry with her, and I didn't understand why she was like that, because she was a progressive girl. Even though she didn't work, she still accepted a job as a consultant for a foreign language center of an acquaintance, enough to cover the rent and living expenses, and the extra money was for shopping. I really hated her because she didn't know how to save anything. Plus, every month she didn't have any extra money from her salary, so I thought that this kind of love was really expensive.

During this time, my parents urged me to get married but I couldn't marry her. Then I was introduced to a girl from my hometown, with a stable job, simple and hard-working. After that, I broke up with her for a good reason. The first few days of the breakup, she kept texting me to try to get back together, after a week like that, I still firmly broke up. She accidentally caught me holding hands with the new girl, she didn't contact me anymore. After that, I married that girl but things weren't as good as I thought. If she was stubborn and often yelled at me, my wife was very gentle. If she had a loving heart, behind her gentle appearance, my wife was a profound woman, cursing her husband, selfish, flirtatious, the house was messy for two people, sometimes there was food and sometimes there wasn't, I had to clean it all day. I was cuckolded even though I took good care of my wife, so we divorced after a year of marriage.

A month ago, I accidentally met her in a shopping mall, she was elegant and not as young as before, more beautiful, colder, I only dared to stand and watch from afar. Meeting a mutual acquaintance, I learned that she was working for a multinational corporation, secretly happy for her. I also learned the truth, the time she did not go to work after graduation was because of poor health, the doctor told her not to do anything, to limit thinking too much to recover, I was too careless. I also know, since the day we broke up until now, it has been several years since she has loved anyone. As my friend said, although many people loved and proposed, she refused, becoming indifferent to men.

I remember you said you would get married at 25, have children at 26, and have a happy family, definitely. Now you are 30, I feel guilty for taking away a woman's trust in a man. I feel mean and selfish. Even apologizing to you, I feel unworthy. These days, I can only indulge in drunkenness, not knowing what to do to return your joy, trust, and happiness? What should I do when I don't dare to face you? I feel like what I received after betraying you is not enough. What should I do, I am not worthy of being a man.

According to VNE