Horrified because every night my husband forces me to tell him about my affair

I cried so much, cried until I had no more tears, I even felt no passion for this life anymore, but every time I thought of committing suicide, the image of my child learning to walk appeared...

I am 25 years old, I have been married for 2 years and have a 1 year old daughter.

At first, when we first got married, we lived quite happily. My husband was an intellectual. He was educated and had a good, stable job. I was a foreign language teacher. Our jobs weren’t too busy, so we had a lot of time for each other. However, since I got pregnant, and especially since I gave birth, he changed 180 degrees.

I was tired and exhausted, but you never helped me or asked me how I was doing or encouraged me. Even at night, when the baby was crying and I was exhausted from holding the baby all night, you not only did not hold me or encourage me, but also got angry and nagged at me.

I was sad and thought about depression. Then, after the confinement period, I went back to work and made a huge mistake. I fell in love and had an affair. But when the affair just started, I was honest with my husband. I hoped that he would realize his mistake in being inconsiderate towards me and change to get me back. However, when he found out I had an affair, he was as ferocious as a beast. He beat me until my whole body was bruised. And then, he tortured me every day.

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He forced me to quit my job to stay home and take care of the child. Needless to say, my husband's family was very indifferent to me. I gave birth to my first child, my grandparents' first grandchild, but my mother-in-law refused to come and help me. The day I gave birth, she only came to see the child, then went straight home, without asking me a single question. When they picked me up from the hospital, my husband's family was only there for meals. After that, for 6 whole months, no one helped me except my mother (even though they lived only 10km away from my house - nv).

I knew I was wrong so I listened to you and asked for leave according to your wishes. But the longer I stayed at home, the more miserable and painful I became. Every day you nagged and criticized me. Even at night, whether it was 12am, 1am, or 2am, you woke me up, forced me to “serve” you, then you made me tell you in detail every single thing that you and that person did and said to each other. Then you made me compare…

I begged you so many times to forgive me, not to punish me like that, but every time you just laughed. Then you forced me to live in pain and misery.

Therefore, I desperately wanted to divorce my husband to end the days of being punished, tortured and tormented by him. However, when I just thought of divorce, my parents were in trouble. Everyone said that it was my fault so I had to suffer the punishment of my husband, but my family had no precedent for divorce, once married, I had to endure at all costs. I cried all day, cried until I had no tears. I cried to the point that in just 3 months since the incident, I had lost 14kg. I was so miserable that I no longer wanted to live in this world. But I still had a child, a child who was still very young, just learning to walk...

I'm so scared, I don't know what to do now. In this matter, I was wrong, but it's been 3 months, 3 months of you punishing me so painfully. Now, having to endure more, I don't know how to live anymore?

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